Loss

Today

I feel

the pain 

of losing

my own flesh 

of what happens

when a surgeon 

with a sharp knife

and clean precision

slices a peice 

of my body

I watch it go

my flesh

cut asunder 

the pain burns 

a cold fire

the lost part aches

as though it

has not gone

will never go

I close my eyes
and feel the 

phantom pain of

that sick, aching 

gangrenous flesh
of mine

this skillful surgeon

will save my life
 no doubt

but I wonder

if this living body

will ever forget

its lost part?

will it ever feel 

whole again?